Who I am doesn’t change This was my impossible idea for today. I woke up this morning, put the water on for tea, leaned against the fridge and looked inside for impossible ideas. There was quite a noise and commotion inside, I had silly dreams and there were voices and feelings and emotions all swirling [...]

How do I change the world? It is a hard question to answer, isn’t it? But I found an even harder one: how do I live with the world, and in it? How do I remain myself, when I feel the constant, strong, irresistible pull to be “one of them”? I’ve been so angry, so [...]

I live in a wonderland lately, just like Alice did …. there is a mad-hatter in here somewhere, who opens his mouth and a rushing stream of words spills out – angry, frustrated, fearful words, unstoppable and uncontrolled. Then Christopher says “PAUSHA!” and I stop, shake my head, clamp my mouth shot and murmur: “thank [...]

I read a question today: “how do you define progress” … and I found myself lacking a definition, lacking any idea, lacking anything at all, on the subject of progress. Nothing I thought about it felt right. My head would persist in providing me with all sorts of reasons why progress was good: the improvement, [...]

How can life be wasted? What does it even mean: wasted life? A friend told me today about her father informing her, that she wasted her life, and it stuck with me, because I could not see how she could do such a thing. I could not see how life could be wasted. Am I [...]